Keep on keeping on

Some weeks it's just like ripping off a band aid. But instead of doing it the way everyone tells me to, and just getting it over with quick, I'm peeling it slow so I can feel the painful tug of every little translucent hair as it yanks on my skin.

I blame my own special brand of procrastination. The one where everything other than writing seems like a good idea. (Portal 2 was totally worth it though) I did finally pull myself up by the teeth and finish April above my word count. By two thousand words, which is kind of hilarious when compared to previous months of beating it by about thirty thousand.

I was ahead this month, until the 13th, and then I dropped, and dropped, and then I rallied and I was so close to catching up, and then I dropped again. I've only had the one day of absolutely zero words, which is actually around the same time in April that I had three in a row. So maybe that's progress? Granted, there are days when I write 300 and that's, well...really nothing at all, so I could almost count that as a zero. But the fact remains that I did sit down and make some effort to write, so my inner cheerleader tells me I have to count even the baby steps. 

I'm at 569 and change, so still at the half way point. It's funny how much slower it seems to go when you don't write a hundred thousand words in a month. :P Oh the horror. 

I am still enjoying the writing when I do actually get into the rhythm. Still interested in my characters and plot. I am juggling three now, instead of just two, so the updates on chapters is slowing down, but I kind of expected that. 

Really, I wish I were craftier, and I would just hold on to updates, even when I'm getting them done quickly, and put them out once a week, so it wouldn't seem like such a long wait when I put out two in a week, and then wait another week and a half to get another one out. But I'm not patient at all, so that well crafted plan goes completely out the window every time I'm done proof reading a chapter.

Should I wait? I could wait. If I wait it'll...naw screw it. Posted.

Story of my life.

I missed the solar eclipse because it was cloudy. So that was an utter disappointment. It wasn't going to be 'total' (or ring of fire anyway)in my neck of the woods, but it was going to be impressively close, which would have been plenty good enough for me. I guess that's just mother nature sparing me the oracular damage that I was probably going to receive if the clouds haven't been there. 

"Don't look at the eclipse!" "Don't look at the sun!" "view it through a pinhole camera!"

Pfft. Please. The fastest way to get me to do something is to tell me not to do it.(note to self. Don't write) Plus, epic alignment of moon and sun? You bet your boots I'll snatch a look. I like to think I'll save my permanent blindness for a full eclipse, because that'll be totally worth it. But again, there's my serious lack of patience to consider, and if the clouds hadn't been there, I probably would have pondered the likelihood of me actually getting to see a total eclipse and then saying "Screw it, I'm looking while I have the chance."

I tend to say 'screw it' a lot when it's something I know I shouldn't be doing, but have no real valid reason that I want to. I should probably get that looked at.

And if you haven't seen this. Well, you should.